It’s For The Last Time…

He'll always be my baby boy

He’ll always be my baby boy

I’ve spent the last week with a little knot in my tummy and slight sadness in my heart, no one prepared me for how i would feel this week.  You see, this week is the last week my baby boy is a school pupil.  I know this doesn’t really mean much to you but it was the last time, like the VERY last time, i topped up his dinner money account, the last time his school shirts were ironed, the last time his bus ticket was purchased and tomorrow will be his very last day at school with his last GCSE.

First day at big school

First day at big school

Where has that time gone? In my head it’s still his first day at secondary school with a blazer way too big but a big cheesy grin, feeling all grown up ready for big school. He’s 17 this year and can learn to drive and although i’m excited to see what he does with his life and so proud of the man he is turning into it still makes me sad that in the click of a switch those years have gone. Why didn’t I see it coming?

building snowmen

building snowmen

For those that know me, they know that Liam, my son, is the one constant in my life, from teenage single mum to now living in our very own dream home with our gorgeous family and i won’t lie, there were some turbulent times, but he is the one person that lived those with me and actually, pretty much watch me grow up.

Perfection right there!

Perfection right there!

As a teenage mum i didn’t have the choice whether to work full time or not, i worked full time and studied at college too for 8 years.  I could have spent more time with Liam and not studied at college but i wanted a better life for him and actually, i wanted it for me too. So there was always that guilt as i’m sure many many other mum’s have, that they don’t spend enough time with the kids.  If i’m honest, i think whatever choices us mum’s make, whether to spend more time at home, or work more hours to be able to have those holidays and luxuries,  the ‘i wonder what if…’ scenarios will always cross our minds. There really is no wrong or right, just choices we have to make.

My happy boy

My happy boy

When i look at Liam, i see someone who always has a smile on his face (providing it’s after 11am), he is loved by his family and many friends, he has a very bright future ahead of him and i really couldn’t ask for more from a son.  So actually, i did a bloody good job and instead of sat here in my little world of sorrow i’m going to take my own advice and be happy, live for today and just stop every once in a while to appreciate everything.

Love x

Love x

The glass is half full people!!!

Just make sure you really think about those words ‘you only live once’ because you really do only get one shot at life, make it count.

Michelle xx

Leavers 2016 (he's the one on his knees!)

Leavers 2016 (he’s the one on his knees!)

 

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